Welcome to my blog: Trying my best to be an adult (and not having a clue what I’m doing).

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Right then, how do I start this? A big opening statement? Or a simple, hello? Welcome? My name’s Alex? I’ll go with an awkward ‘Hi’. 👋🏼

Saying that, me being not sure how to introduce myself here probably fits well as to why I’m starting this blog and a new YouTube channel. Because I have no idea what I’m doing in life! I’m literally not sure what I’m supposed to be doing. I’m winging it. I’ve been juggling responsibilities and struggling to find my feet in the world ever since I turned 18 and that societal switch on me went ‘click’… Adult Mode ✅

Quite frankly I don’t know how I’ve made it this far! I turned 27 this year but, in my head, I still feel like I’m 21. I mean yea, on paper i've done quite well. I got a degree, a grad job, and became a qualified accountant. I bought a house and have been living by myself for 4 months, I’ve held a career job for 6 years but I still don’t know how this adult thing works if I'm being honest! 👨🏼‍💼

The day I moved into my first house!

I’m uncertain what I want in life. Unsure what career path I should take. Unconvinced of my decisions in the past. Confused as to what is going on in now. Hesitant as to what the future holds. 🤦🏼‍♂‍

I’ve had more mini breakdowns in the last 2 years than I’d care to admit, mostly about not knowing what I’m doing with my life. I’m finding myself getting older and older but further and further away from working out the equation and finding the answer as to where I my life to go and what I want to do with it. 🤷🏼

Confused I often ask the questions…

Should I go travelling? Should I quit my job and do something more exciting? Should I buy a house? Should I settle down? Should I start a business? Should I invest more? Should I do more for the community? Should I give up drinking and partying? Should I party more and enjoy my best years? I don’t know. 🗺

I somehow think these are common questions we all think, as young adults thrown into the big scary world. So, I’ve decided to start a blog to discuss some of these life experiences. I’m hoping there are some of you out there, who can relate to what I talk about, the experiences I’ve had, the challenges I’m having now and the worries I have as I tackle through life. 🙋🏼‍♂‍

So, if like me, you have no idea how this growing up thing should go, you’re fumbling your way through life not really sure what you’re doing… then this blog could be for you. 🤷🏼‍♂‍

Here’s a bit of what I plan to write about and discuss through my blog and my YouTube:

🧠 Self-development & personal growth
💼 Work life and careers
🏋🏼‍♂‍ Fitness training and food
🌍 Climate change, sustainability and the environment
💆🏼‍♂‍ Mental wellbeing
🌞 Finding fulfilment
👨🏼‍💻 Being productive
📈 Investing and starting up business ideas
🏡 Moving out and living by yourself
👫🏼 Relationships
🤷🏼‍♂‍ Everyday struggles of just trying to be an adult!

Why am I doing this?

We often get held back by our own limiting beliefs. We think we are not good enough, not skilled enough, we think, ‘I can’t do that’ or ‘they’re lucky they get to do that’. Well that’s me. And I’ve decided to say f*ck it. Let’s do it. 👊🏼

Back in 2020 during the first UK lockdown I started a TikTok. I put it off for ages as 1) I was embarrassed what my friends would say 2) I didn’t think I was funny enough 3) I’m rubbish with technology I don’t know how to edit 4) isn’t it for kids? 👯‍♂‍

A year on and I have over 135,000 followers, I got signed by a management agency, had numerous cool opportunities I never thought I’d experience and I even had half a dozen people come up to me on holiday and say, ‘You’re that lad in the dressing gown on TikTok. I follow you!'🍦

I’m not saying I’m famous in any form but just by doing it, learning along the way and not letting my doubts get in the way, I’ve had so much fun with it! 🤳🏼

Lately I’ve been focusing on my self development and personal growth, reading more and watching inspirational speakers. I love to write (even though im not that great and english was my worst subject at school), and I enjoy being in front of a camera but those doubts of being good enough or needing validation from people still get to me. I still have fears over what people think of me, my uselessness with technology and generally putting myself out there. Don’t we all? 😨

So, I thought you know what, let’s throw myself into it, and no doubt, I’ll suck it at... but I’ll try to fail forward and take everything as a learning curve. 📚

So here I am, writing my first blog post after just buying some YouTube equipment from Amazon. Can you be my first subscriber? 📸

If like me, you’re doing your best at growing up but feeling like you’re failing at this whole ‘adulting’ thing… please sign up to my blog, subscribe to my YouTube and follow my socials. We can find our feet together! 🚀

Alex Dean

Alex Dean